Is it just my children that make me feel like this?

Posted on 7:45pm Monday 15th Sep 2014

I love my children, I really do and I would move heaven and earth for them but O...M...G!!!! have they pushed me to the absolute limits today...and 1 of them was at school all day!

It’s on days like these that I feel a complete let down as a mummy, I’m not being dramatic (well maybe just a tad) but that is just how I feel at this particular moment.

From tantrums about going down to breakfast, to not wanting to clean teeth, throwing themselves off the sofa, kicking the sofa, head butting the sofa, deciding it would be a fantastic idea to throw an almighty strop bang in the middle of the Tesco shop to have folk look at you with those beady stirs (please tell me you know the kind of stirs I’m talking about), to then pick up what appears to be a perfectly happy delightful 4 year old (man how she suckered me into that little illusion) for her to start the highly strung strops...again and then have the 1 year old think it would be a fantastic idea to throw t shirts and socks in the bath whilst I turn my back for the briefest of moments! Yes on days like these I feel a failure. Why? I’m tired. I’m tired of hearing my own voice say (and I quote) “No! Stop what you are doing right now”. “No! Do not pull your sister down the slide by her legs!” “No. Come out of the cupboard.” “No. Put the Corn Flakes back your about to have tea.” And I am pretty sure, no scrap that, I am 100% sure my children are pretty tired of hearing me say these things too. Yes I’ve tried reasoning with them when shouting lets me down, and I’m not ashamed to admit I’ve even bribed them with things to get them to be "lovely", but no I think they quite like seeing me rock back and forth in the corner!

Yes today I feel a rubbish mum, even though I know I’m not, because not every day is like today (thank god), today I let the children suck me of most of my sanity and its only bloody Monday, but tomorrow will be a new day and I will be prepared for the little darlings!

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The 2 Miss KnittyKnotts...oh how I love them

With love, a highly emotional mummy of 2

Mrs KnittyKnotts

Miss KnittyKnotts embarks on her school journey

Posted on 8:03pm Wednesday 3rd Sep 2014

How did it come around so quick? Four years has just flown by, mainly by watching Miss KnittyKnotts grow up in to a beautiful little lady, and now, tomorrow she is heading off to school (this is where you insert a sobbing mummy, me)

They say when you have a baby, enjoy every day, make the most of it because they will be heading off to school before you know it, and you think to yourself “don’t be daft 4 years is ages away”. News flash- it really isn’t is it? I am struggling far more with this transition than my Miss KnittyKnotts, who just cannot wait to start. Why am I struggling? Simply because I do not want her to go, I don’t want to have to share her with anyone, selfish I know, but this has been a major issue with me ever since she came into my life, and I don’t like change, I never had. I think I would of preferred her to of driven me to the point of despair so I could of quite easily of deposited her at school, but no she has been a little superstar all summer...sods law.

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These past 6 weeks of the summer holidays have flown by. Apparently this happens when you are having fun you know. We have enjoyed rollicking here, there and everywhere on our little KnittyKnott adventures, whether it is heading off in our trusty Bouncing Bailey or just heading to the park to feed the ducks. So how did we spend our last day? Well by baking a yummy scrummy chocolate cake of course. No new adventure should ever start without chocolate cake! We then hot footed it off to Bransby Horses. A fantastic place where they re home/adopt retired and abandoned horses and donkeys, and you don’t have to be of a horsey nature to enjoy it as there’s a cracking cafe there! It’s only a 20 minute or so drive from Lincoln and what’s more it’s totally free!

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So back to this school malarkey. Miss KnittyKnotts uniform is all ironed, name labelled up and ready to be worn. For this little lady, this has been a long time coming, she has wanted to go to “big school” since last September and I know she will absolutely love it as she is an eager beaver to learn. And me? Well yes, like I said I don’t want her to go, but neither do I want her to not go I don’t want to be the mummy that holds her back and stops her from spreading her wings. Yes I am jealous of the teachers, they are going to be spending a rather large chunk of time with my Miss KnittyKnotts & I am completely uneasy of trusting them to look after her the way I do & I wish, I really wish I had just 1 more day before she has to go but as my mum has just told me 1 more day would never be enough, (and she’s not wrong it really wouldn’t be, just don’t tell her that after 31 years I am still trying to prove my mum wrong!). So I am going to take a positive approach and look forward and get excited when I pick her up for school, I’m going to enjoy all her little tales about the things she’s learnt and the friends she’s made, but mostly I am going to enjoy planning what adventures we are going to do when half term comes around because that’s when she’s all mine again!

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